Mental Health

I’ve recently opened up about the fact that I’ve experienced mental health issues over the past twelve years. In the future I plan to write more about many different personal challenges and learning. My reasons for this are to help open the topic for conversation, provide some insight to myself, and to provide relief from isolation and be connected. I am not a medical professional. I am only able to speak of my experiences from the other side.
Today I’m starting with a list of some things I noticed about myself leading up to hospitalization.

What I noticed before hospitalization

– Severe difficulty concentrating

– Difficulty getting things done

– Intense feelings of stress

– Difficulty sleeping

– Delusional thoughts

– Lack of visible emotion and random out bursts of crying

– Eating very little

Experiences Immediately before hospitalization

– Mechanical movements and chewing

– Self harm

– Extremely delusional thoughts

– Not able to sleep

– Pacing

– Speaking very little

– A focus on good and evil

Factors that effected me

– Spending large amounts of time alone

– Trying to look strong while feeling broken

– Isolating myself emotionally by sharing little

– Keeping many limiting beliefs

– History of some mental illness in the family

– Feeling like I had to figure it out on my own and carry on

3 thoughts on “Mental Health

  1. I love your honesty and caring, not only for others but also for yourself. To continue the conversation about mental health, I have a brother with schizophrenia and my mother also has schizophrenia. Because of experiences I had growing up I was very very intrigued with how our psyche works so once my three children were almost grown up I decided to go back to school and just recently finished my bachelor of arts majoring in psychology. If I could have taken all 40 classes in psychology I would have because I find it so interesting, however that’s not how it goes so I also have lots of insight in philosophy and women’s studies etc. I personally have dealt with slight depression before I left my 15 year marriage, and anxieties that I managed to get over. You obviously know that you are not alone, and that everyone has their own story to tell..thank you for opening up about yours ❤️

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    1. Thank you for sharing! That’s so great that you were able to get that education. I’ve pondered getting a psychology education and would love to talk to you about what you’ve learned sometime.


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